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Sunday, May 1st, 2011 06:45 pm
Bad blogger, but need to post this for record-keeping. 1pm last Saturday, I had a full seizure, two days before my next neuro appointment. I hate PMSing. He didn't want to do anything about it though, and when I asked if birth control might help, he said it wasn't worth it unless there were other reasons...which there aren't at present. That brings me to my next topic, Michael. We've been out four times and talked quite a bit, about the same stuff repeatedly. He bores me, lives an hour from here, and if Dueling Pianos is anything to go by, is more conservative than I thought. He's barely hugged me and hasn't kissed me. I'm not touchy-feely, but am way confused. I think he doesn't understand my expectations and I don't know how to convey that without saying "you didn't go to a real university or live in a real college town." I thought that wouldn't be an issue, but it is, a Bachelor's degree isn't enough. Help?
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Thursday, January 13th, 2011 10:21 pm
Just got back to Pensacola and already had drama. Meds got messed up by travel and ran out of Carbatrol. Took Keppra and Lyrica to no avail. Freaked out half of Publix by seizing in the laundry detergent aisle. This was just before 8pm. Took Valium a few minutes ago and just had another seizure (10:15pm). Need another dose, calling Daddy now. Took one Lyrica and one Keppra. Have I mentioned I hate my body?
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Thursday, December 23rd, 2010 04:20 am
I don't usually get sad over friends and family, but I'm way freaked out right now. A weekend after I got back from Birmingham, my grandmother was diagnosed with leukemia. This is extra weird as we had discussed their funeral/burial wishes because my grandfather's not well either. However, my grandmother seemed fine yet she supposedly has around two months left. The chemo is slowing the rise of her white blood cell count, but hasn't begun to reverse it yet. All they can do is buy time. And while most people want items for memories, I was lying in bed this morning thinking of the scrap of paper I thought of taking off her counter that had the ingredients for her pimento cheese. She doesn't have a recipe and I have her other favorite recipes. I probably can't get it right, but it freaks me out to not have it. Also, I'm glad now that I took some cupcakes when I left my parents' house, but now eating them feels weird, knowing that I'll probably not get more. I'm debating another trip to Birmingham, but not sure if it'll happen. Especially since Granny's the type to not want us to be there if she's not ok. However, that may never be the case again.
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Monday, November 22nd, 2010 04:43 pm
I've never seen my parents as much as I have this month. Kinda glad I'm spending Thanksgiving in Tallahassee. However, I also saw Emily twice this month, which is very seldom the case. Got my birthday present from her this weekend. I now have $63 in iTunes credit. Need ideas on how to spend it. I have a few ideas, but not many. I may be spending it on Christmas though, along with Amazon credit. Other than that, I got money, Japanese dinner and cupcakes on my birthday, and bought myself Samrat when I got to Tally. Didn't get to meet up with Thomas though. :-( The Clemson game was kickass though, close game with a last second field goal to win. It was cold though, and thinking about boots for the Florida game, as it'll be over after dark.

This weekend was low key, unexpected viewing of HP 7.1 though. It was good, but I have no idea how much of book 7 it actually covered. We also went and got free frappacinos yesterday, as Starbucks had the holiday drinks bogo all weekend. Saturday night was epic Trivial Pursuit after the football game, but we lost due to our in ability to land in the middle for like 4 turns. :-/ Next weekend/this week will be jam-packed. Need time in Tally though, want a job there.

ETA: Seizure at 4am on the 21st.
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Wednesday, July 28th, 2010 04:30 am
I feel like blogger fail. So much has happened recently. I'm finishing my paper and trying to find a job. Getting stuck on the Cenotaph section. Talked to the caseworker today at GA Voc Rehab to set up a more narrow search. DC and Boston are now first priority and I'm looking at the West Coast myself. Heard back from Lindsay today and I might start with Portland. As such, for now, moving to Pensacola and trying not to go crazy.

On a happier note, I finally got my tattoo, which is almost healed. I'll post pix later as the ones I floated on Twitter were bad and shiny. It's a heart in black with shading with the FS and feather logo in the center, F and feather are black, S is garnet. It's been over two weeks, but it still itches.

And a note to self: Seizure on July 18th at 2:30am.
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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2010 02:23 pm
Ugh, this week has been interesting. Comps were Monday morning, but I got there to find out that Grant didn't submit his questions. As such, I dealt with Frank and Upchurch's questions, and their funky instruction. Frank forgot that he told me only to answer one, so a phone call was made to verify this. However, got a phone call Tuesday that I've passed his. Upchurch's I'm nervous as well though. Answered a gender history/suffrage question and a French/Haitian Revolution question, neither of with did I have time for the ten sources he wanted. And my French Rev sources were weak, but that's partly the books assigned for the class, McMahon was bigger on class notes, but Upchurch may not know that. I take Grant's exams Friday, need to rewrite them and time myself. Lots of details in military history. I also need to begin working on the paper again. Have an outline, but need more Australian War Memorial research. Lutyens is the main link, but need a link for Verdun. I'm ready to graduate.

Last night was interesting, totally screwed up my meds and felt like shit. Being toxic is infinitely worse than seizing as it lasts longer. For those who read my Twitter, that's why I left. Even fluids and food didn't help. Only sleep fixed it, but I slept through the WLL flail. :-/ OMG, that was fucking amazing! All of last night's stream was amazing. Adam went all out and if the reviewers can't see that and want more, fuck 'em. More songs means less vocals and I'd rather have awesome vocals than a longer show. Plus, I'm sure he doesn't want to perform the whole album. That leaves no surprises. And despite his open book policy, I think he wants a cohesive show and a few surprises. Which I may never get to see, the NOLA venue's being changed. Argh!
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Wednesday, April 21st, 2010 04:25 am
Sorry if I scared anyone with my previous entry. It was mainly for bookkeeping purposes. I forget at times that people actually read my entries. However, Tyler called me worried about it and reminded me that this journal is now linked to my Twitter. That's mainly for [livejournal.com profile] ontd_ai and [livejournal.com profile] hooplamagnet identification purposes though. As for a follow up, no doctor's visits yet, but definitely feeling better. Not as many tremors.

On the school front, changed topic to monuments of World War I/Armistice Day, as I'd forgotten that half the original paper was physical monuments, not holidays. I'm going to flesh those out and add a few more. Depends on source material of cource and which holds/ILL requests I get. I need to narrow down monuments before I search articles (newspaper/magazine/journal). So far I've gotten several British books back, but reading British history with Adam fandom the way it is at the moment could get distracting. Maybe after Thursday, when he's supposed to finally arrive in London, so promo can begin. Then maybe I can read London and not get worried about shit I can't control.
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Wednesday, April 14th, 2010 03:04 am
I think it's been nearly eight months since I had a seizure, but my lack of decent updates calls that into question. However, I just had a bad one. The one in October was apparently a partial, this was decidedly not. Not enough sleep is probably to blame, but my hand was tight for hours. I may have a trip to the neuro looming anyway though, as the tingling in my arms is still happening. My meds are back to normal though, so now I'm wondering what else. I've noticed that raising my arms up seems to make worse. I've wondered about a pinched nerve or something for a while, but I have no pain. Looks like tomorrow is a trip to Thagard before Strozier.
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Friday, April 2nd, 2010 10:57 pm
I've been trying to taper off my Lyrica, but it's not going well. Nearly two weeks in and I had to go back up to the full dose. I've been having a weird possible side effect that won't go away. Tremors in both arms periodically that feel like something between actual tremors and what happens when you shiver. No pain, but way annoying. Not totally sure it's related though, as it may have started before my blood level would've gone down. Giving it through the weekend before going to plan b, as Daddy can't figure it out.

My paper for my MS could be a bigger pain than I though, as the starting paper is about five pages shorter than what I thought I had. Also, not many sources in our library. ILL will be fun unless I find articles, but I need more books as well. Need to search Veteran's Day and Remembrance Day as well before putting in for books. Armistice Day is complicated by the Israeli one from 1948 that has nada to do with the WWI-based holiday. Also, Armistice Day gives me a bunch of end of war books, not holiday stuff. We'll see if any have useful chapters.
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Friday, October 16th, 2009 06:04 am
My body hates me. I had a partial seizure about an hour ago. I think I missed a dose somewhere, but am too close to needing more Keppra and Carbatrol to be able to compensate right now. This means that my plan to write my entire conclusion today may not happen. However, I did finish the intro from Hell on Tuesday. Haven't heard back from Gray since I e-mailed it to him though. Hoping to meet with him Monday, so we can finalize my defense. I'd like to be able to look for a job more thoroughly. Did apply for two positions this week not really expecting that to pay off though. I need a job soon though or I have to move to Mobile and sublet after graduation, the thought of which breaks my heart. :'(

On a lighter note, my journal's been public for ages, but I have a question for my readers. Would friends locking it change the likelihood of commenting on entries for any of you? I don't mean to sound like a comment whore, but I get so few comments that I can't even tell who reads my stuff.
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Friday, October 16th, 2009 06:04 am
My body hates me. I had a partial seizure about an hour ago. I think I missed a dose somewhere, but am too close to needing more Keppra and Carbatrol to be able to compensate right now. This means that my plan to write my entire conclusion today may not happen. However, I did finish the intro from Hell on Tuesday. Haven't heard back from Gray since I e-mailed it to him though. Hoping to meet with him Monday, so we can finalize my defense. I'd like to be able to look for a job more thoroughly. Did apply for two positions this week not really expecting that to pay off though. I need a job soon though or I have to move to Mobile and sublet after graduation, the thought of which breaks my heart. :'(

On a lighter note, my journal's been public for ages, but I have a question for my readers. Would friends locking it change the likelihood of commenting on entries for any of you? I don't mean to sound like a comment whore, but I get so few comments that I can't even tell who reads my stuff.
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Thursday, July 2nd, 2009 06:33 pm
My sleep is so screwy that my medicine doses are completely off some days, with night doses happening at 6 or 8am, sometimes later. Anyway, after almost seven months of no seizures, life caught up with me. Two doses of Valium in 24 hours and no missed doses recently, and I still had a partial seizure at 4am and a full seizure at 3:45pm, while packing to leave town. Needless to say, leaving town is on hold, as I have no desire to be on a bus tonight. Will go to Mobile tomorrow during the day, contemplating the 7am bus due to the screwy circadian rhythm and the desire to not be in a packed bus station on a national holiday. So anyway, eyebrows and haircut are on hold. Sigh.
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Thursday, July 2nd, 2009 06:33 pm
My sleep is so screwy that my medicine doses are completely off some days, with night doses happening at 6 or 8am, sometimes later. Anyway, after almost seven months of no seizures, life caught up with me. Two doses of Valium in 24 hours and no missed doses recently, and I still had a partial seizure at 4am and a full seizure at 3:45pm, while packing to leave town. Needless to say, leaving town is on hold, as I have no desire to be on a bus tonight. Will go to Mobile tomorrow during the day, contemplating the 7am bus due to the screwy circadian rhythm and the desire to not be in a packed bus station on a national holiday. So anyway, eyebrows and haircut are on hold. Sigh.
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Sunday, June 28th, 2009 10:35 pm
Ok, so the earring from Hell had to be broken to be removed. This required assistance and since Sara spent the weekend on my couch, she was nominated. Having needle-nosed pliers anywhere near your ear isn't a good thing, but it was worth it to have the earring out. Shopping yesterday yielded new earring backs that Tyler gets blamed for if they get stuck, as he told me they're what he uses. It'll be a couple of days before I put in the earrings I turned my closet inside out to find. I figure the current weather and my AI obsession make lightning bolt earrings make sense. Plus they are large enough to not cause pain if the backs get stuck. Wonder what the parental units will think.
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Sunday, June 28th, 2009 10:35 pm
Ok, so the earring from Hell had to be broken to be removed. This required assistance and since Sara spent the weekend on my couch, she was nominated. Having needle-nosed pliers anywhere near your ear isn't a good thing, but it was worth it to have the earring out. Shopping yesterday yielded new earring backs that Tyler gets blamed for if they get stuck, as he told me they're what he uses. It'll be a couple of days before I put in the earrings I turned my closet inside out to find. I figure the current weather and my AI obsession make lightning bolt earrings make sense. Plus they are large enough to not cause pain if the backs get stuck. Wonder what the parental units will think.
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Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009 05:17 am
Ok, I have a painful problem that I can't solve. When my second holes were pierced, they weren't mall piercing gun size. However, I've had standard studs in them for the last eight years. The back of the hole has shrunk, but the front hasn't. I now have an earring in one of these holes that the back won't come off of and I can't tell why. The earring in the hole is getting stuck in the front of the hole and causing pain while I try to pull the back off. Any ideas on how to remedy this?
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Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009 05:17 am
Ok, I have a painful problem that I can't solve. When my second holes were pierced, they weren't mall piercing gun size. However, I've had standard studs in them for the last eight years. The back of the hole has shrunk, but the front hasn't. I now have an earring in one of these holes that the back won't come off of and I can't tell why. The earring in the hole is getting stuck in the front of the hole and causing pain while I try to pull the back off. Any ideas on how to remedy this?
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Thursday, May 7th, 2009 03:30 pm
Ok, so I get my new Internet links on my flash drive and my iPod updated, check for my books and ID and charge my phone a little. I head out for the library and trip on the sidewalk. My backpack flipped over my head and I skinned the bottom of my big toe and my left knee as well as several other place, but didn't damage my watch (yay!). Had to stop in the Diffenbaugh bathroom (after noticing the blood on my Rainbows) on my way back to put a band aid on my toe, which of course was too small. Got back and finished cleaning up, but walking all over campus isn't gonna happen. *sigh* Will have to hope the laptop isn't damaged. Gonna check that next (typing on crash prone desktop). Ugh.
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Thursday, May 7th, 2009 03:30 pm
Ok, so I get my new Internet links on my flash drive and my iPod updated, check for my books and ID and charge my phone a little. I head out for the library and trip on the sidewalk. My backpack flipped over my head and I skinned the bottom of my big toe and my left knee as well as several other place, but didn't damage my watch (yay!). Had to stop in the Diffenbaugh bathroom (after noticing the blood on my Rainbows) on my way back to put a band aid on my toe, which of course was too small. Got back and finished cleaning up, but walking all over campus isn't gonna happen. *sigh* Will have to hope the laptop isn't damaged. Gonna check that next (typing on crash prone desktop). Ugh.
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Friday, January 9th, 2009 01:31 am
Four months, eighteen days. That was the stretch between seizures I had until today. However, working days does not agree with me. I should've left work early to get more sleep, as I took Valium at work, but no one at Bill's knows my situation. I didn't think I needed to despite having auras all afternoon. And then there was the having the seizure right as the national championship game was starting, not a good omen. Turned that off just as Gatorade was dumped on Urban Meyer, fuck the Gators. The announcers Tebow worship was at an all-time high and it was sickening. Add this to the fact that they all seems to be Captain Obvious and the game was as painful to listen to as it was to watch. Two blown goal line situations by Oklahoma changed the champion. However, Utah finishing undefeated may still mean the Gators share the title, if not the trophy. That's hollow though after the smackdown in Tally at Thanksgiving.